Reading Xtina Strong's blog earlier this morning. She writes of estranged relationship with her brother and her mother's attitude re: family relations - i.e. why don't you call him? couldn't help but think of my own conflicted relationship with Ed. we have some things to talk about, for sure, but the nature of those conversations would unfortunately cause unhappiness and chaos vs. anything like opening or transformation. sigh. I often wonder if he would have preferred a little brother, or no sibling at all. But than I bear half or at least a third of family expectations which gives him some relief.